In May of this year I posted on this blog a letter urging you to repent so we can handle you. I thought I made it very clear that it is important that you are handled this lifetime. If you wait for next lifetime it will be too late, as you will be in such miserable state that you will not be able to avail yourself for handling. You will then have to suffer through several life times, and perhaps then you will be again in a shape to be audited. We will be here. Your corrupt organization will not. However, why go through a hundred years of agony, when you can end it today?
It is possible that you need more details as to how you could start on a route to repair you as a being. I will try to direct you in this blog. Your behavior indicates that you are walking around with a missed withhold. The constant nattery, the accusations of other. The fact that you put yourself in seclusion and avoid people. These are all indicators of a missed withhold. Once you give it up, you will have an easier time reaching the right decision.
A missed withhold is something that was nearly found out. Nearly found out, but still unknown. That means that all the things known about you are not it. It is something that we do not know about you. I would not even venture to guess what it is. The Truth is, it does not even matter to me. All I care about is that you and your church start on the road to healing.
Here is my suggestion to you. If you reveal your undisclosed overts and withholds to me I will guarantee you confidentiality. The Auditor Code applies in full.
Here is how you do it: write me a comment on this blog. I will give you an email to send your overts and withholds write up to. I will go over them to make sure they are written correctly. I will then make arrangements for you to get a meter check (in confidence) from someone with great TRs and great metering skills.
At that point you will be on the road to recovery, and we will take it from there.
I am giving you a door here to salvage yourself. Nobody else has done it. Nobody else will do it. You are hated and despised by all. There is but one being willing to help you. That is I. Take the hand!